taylor momsen?

hello darlings.

how have you been doing? I'm not feeling well today, it was too cold.

i've been watching some of "the pretty reckless" videos today, and my oh my! taylor momsen is awesome. I know i'm like kind of late but yeah. I love the way that she's skinny but she still have..pardon me.. Boobs. haha!

I'm kind of deciding whether i want to look like Vanessa hudgens or Taylor momsen. body wise i mean. I want taylor momsen's makeup though. Here are some of their pics and i hope you guys like it :D

swimming tomorrow?

hello darlings.

I don't feel so good.. mom is watching every move i make. She makes sure that i eat,my sisters are making remarks about anorexia and what not. How will i ever achieve the body i want if they are always here to mess things up? and do you know what she did? she had food delivered for me to eat. i feel like such a fat-ass!

i want to be thin sooooo bad! i will just have a liquid fast tomorrow. everyone's gonna be busy because we will celebrate something i will not eat. i will swim the whole day and sleep after. 

I'll just drink mom's slimming tea, it gives good results.she knows that i drink it. :D it makes my stomach flat and shizz. 

 aww. i  feel like such a failure. I promised myself not to eat. But i just can't. 

"you know you're fat if your shorts are riding up on your thighs."

Lot's of love

--red <3

binged.purged.will fast

heyy darlings.

Im soo happy today. :D I talked to dad on skype.. it's the first time i "saw" him again in years. I hope he will come visit us this summer. He's always busy with work. I miss him so much.

Anyway, I've been out of control the past few days, i'm not gonna lie. I ate like a monster. But i purged and now the lock of my labret piercing is gone. :\ I'm going to buy a new one. The one that's like a spike. LOL. My throat hurts. ouch.? :P

I'm going to fill up my days with lot's of activities. Maybe read some of my textbooks,study ahead so when school resumes i know some of our lessons already. sounds boring.. hahaha :D or i could play guitar all day, wait..ugh. I'm going too stay away from the kitchen! that's what im gonna do.

New year is coming up.. oh my god..2010 went by sooo fast! or it just me? i want this school year to be over. I just want summer to come already because i want to dye my hair bright red. black hair is killing me! well not really. ugh. i don't  know.

okay,see you later guys.always smile! have a good day..or night?.

lot's of love
--red

one down.. 2 to go.

hello darlings :D

So Christmas eve here is done.(that's the one down) later there will be an after party.so that means food food food. my god. and new year! mom already has plans for that. she said she will prepare lots of food so that we will never run out of food for the whole year. It's all superstition but that's part of our tradition
(whoa. that was a crime of rhyme.. LOL..i got it from WOWP.:D )

I find this years Christmas rather exciting,tiring and okay. I got a tokio hotel shirt and money. Money is always nice to receive. it was tiring because my sister and i were the ones who took care of everything. from making the house look good.to cooking.washing the dishes and what not.ugh.m :\

I hope you guys had,have a wonderful Christmas don't forget to greet Jesus, after all it is HIS BIRTHDAY. :D

happy birthday Jesus and merry Christmas to you all! :D

<3 lots of love
--red

okay since i have wowp here on my blog..might as well put pictures of Selena Gomez.

a little message for you guys.

hey darlings.

it's almost christmas eve and i already ate toooo much.. ana help mee!!!

after this night im going on a fast. i'll buy the brazilian coffee for myself eventhough it could cause palpitations. I'd still drink it.

advanced merry Christmas to you guys. I just wanna say i ended the year right by doing this blog and following you guys. This became a very special thing for me.. (oooh i feel like Anne frank right now..ya know the writing stuff..not the..ya know what i mean. :D)

I love reading all your blogs. I love reading comments too..so comment on mine please? LOL. i'll post everday if i can. Love love love love love you guys.


<3
red

i think my mom knows.

hey guys.

im starting to think mom knows about me wanting to take being thin to another level.ya know..  she always says "let's all eat together okay" i don't know what to do. Every bite i take is like a bite of guilt. Aww man! I can't take it anymore. I feel so heavy and lazy.

anywayyy

Have you guys heard of the brazilian slimming coffee?? They say it's effective. I think we should all try it. Mom is buying some so.. i think i will be thinner by 2011. LOL.

LOVELOVE

how would i know?

hello darlings..

STILL haven't bought a weighing scale. How would i know if i'm losing weight? My golly.

my day went okay.,as usual. nothing exciting happened. I browsed through a miley cyrus fan site
http://dresslikemiley.net/

and i gotta say her body rocks. I want that kind of body. But i'm too lazy to exercise. It made me wonder what did she do to have that kind of body? but i don't want to be like her, the way she acts in public and stuff i just want to be as tiny as her.

i think i'll jog tomorrow. even though i have my monthly...umm.. "visitor" if you guys know what i mean.

does anybody know if baking soda can act as a whitening stuff for the body? LOL.haha

i love you all!

--red

advanced merry chrsitmas! xoxo

day1

hello darlings.

How have you been doing? How many days to go before Christmas? Oh the agony!

I now consider this as me first day of really not eating. But i did. but what the heck..I just ate lunch i needed it because I'm the one who's arranging stuff and all. Hopefully tomorrow i won't eat that much.

I did pilates today, it made me sleepy. I want to have a new workout routine. It's getting tiresome for me.

I was soo happy today coz my waist measured 26 inches. LOL. i know it's still big. At least it's not 28 anymore.
does anybody know some exercises on how to tone your legs? Squats? Hiphop abs?

I asked my mom if we could buy a scale tomorrow. she said maybe it would break easily. (really?? am i THAT big?) but i would annoy her till she buys one :D

my collarbone is showing a bit so are my hipbones. I'm having a problem with my belly though because it's flabby much!

This is what i'm planning to eat for the next few days. On Christmas eve..i will..unfortunately...eat. I have to..dad will be there and so is my grandma..via webcam. I know. it sucks..

So here it is.
-green tea/slimming tea
-bread
-water

i hope i could stick to it. I would go jogging tomorrow too. :D

let's look good for the new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



lot's of love
red

askfdjfgkjdshfj!! i need to loose weight..NOW!

hello darlings :D

long time no blog? how are you? I'm sorry i haven't posted stuff for a while.

I'm feeling flabby.I can't help but notice my weight fluctuate. I'm sick and tired of it.

So, Christmas is coming. How are we going to avoid eating to much? i had this in mind.. help with the kitchen work. everyone will be so busy they will not even notice you're not eating and if they do, just tell them that you were helping around the whole time and you're now too tired to eat. then "sleep", Or you could just hide from them and tell them you ate inside your room ;)

I still haven't bought a weighing scale but i'm constantly measuring my waist. I think i need to write "buy a weighing scale" on my forehead with a sharpie so i won't forget.

I just finished watching some thinspo's on youtube and holycowbabies! i got inspired <3 i really want to lose weight now. The girls look soooooo good(no homo) i wanna be like them. I want people to look at me and say "woah".

I'm planning to do pilates again. i hope i could stick to my plan.so i would look good when i-know-who get's back. then it's all about <3 <3 <3 haha :D ooooh..and i got a snakebite piercing on my lower left lip. yeah. :D i-know-who likes it very much. haha :D

Tell me about your day! i wanna know. :D

lot's of love

red
p.s. that's not me..just to be clear. haha :D

LIGHTS..camera..get your skinny on!

well this day turned out good. I found some thinspiration for you guys. Im not labeling her as anything.. i think she     has the body that most of us want.

i assume you guys know her? she's lights/valerie :D she's adoorablllleeee. :D
hoping to be as skinny as her.

lot's of love
--.red

once on the lips..forever on the hips.?

yes.. you've read it right. well.. that phrase has been stuck on my mind the whole time..

and it is a bad day for me. i think i'll make a calendar for my diet. just like MOLLY REID suggested in her blog. you can go to her page by browsing through the "people i follow". she's become an inspiration to me.

so. i promise this will be the only week that i will eat more than i should because i need energy.lots of activities at school.. and my head is hurting.

I'm trying not to put food near my mouth. But somehow my hands are tricky and fast. I always end up eating.
I still don't have a weighing scale, hopefully tomorrow i will be able to buy because we're going out.

I hope to see lots of check marks on my calendar :D later guys

Lots of love
-red

AFTER SWIMMING...im totally gaining

hello,

I'm so disappointed with myself. I promised i would not eat junk foods...or drink soda's. but i was just too hungry. My head was spinning. I knew i needed something to eat. 

Now that our outing is done i think i could go back to the abc diet.  I don't have a weighing scale still so i need to ask mom to buy one. 

I'm not finding it hard to hide my dieting from her because she's struggling with her weight too. i know i can convince her. I'm thankful for that.

On another note. i lost 2 inches around my waist..which is good..i think.. i NEED to lose mooooore!!!

i hope the holidays don't get in the way of my diet. or..i will just eat less.. i'll drink green tea too.

If anyone wants to share their stories with me. comment below please :D

okay..see you next time guys..i mean.talk to you.. :\

lot's of love

red

p.s.

im the one with no flip flops on. :P as you can see.. I AM FAT. that's why i need to lose weight.

CHOCOLATES ARE BITTERsweets

Okay so i have lost control of what i was eating today.
It's so hard for me not to love food.

Im doing the best i can. Oh how i want to be thin



wish me luck

lots of love
--red

food is my enemy?

hello earthlings.


well it's my first day of "fasting", it's kinda hard for me to do. Especially when mom is around coz she knows i love to eat.

Oh,i even drank soda. I felt like i was drinking a glass of guilt and fat. I screamed "aarggghh..i don't want this anymore"..moms face was shocked and curious..well you can say that.

I hope i get through this. OH DARLINGS please help me? i gotta go to school talk to you guys later

Lots of love
--red

THINSPO

HEY GUYS! welcome to my blog. 


I've finally woke up from the nightmare I've been on for the past months. 
I've decided to get thinner and I decided to go for it.


I was browsing on YouTube for some "thinsporations" i came across molly's blog. Go to her blog. I assure, that you will be inspired to become thinner.


I've been struggling to look good for the past months and as always...I fail to reach my goals on being thin/slim.
I'm so glad I've finally had the guts to pursue what i want to do.


I know i'm not the only one feeling like this. If there's anyone reading this and have problems and weight issues,leave a comment and let's help each other.


I'll try to update as much as possible.


<3 Lot's of love
--red