back from the dead

Hello Guys,

how have you been doing? I took a break from blogging, i was just so busy with things. Anyway, how's the first month of the year going so far?


I just want to update on what's going on with my life. So if you have nothing to do... read this perhaps?

So here it goes, i met this guy a couple of years ago. I was mean to him at first, he looked like a jerk,a womanizer, an up-to-no-good kinda boy. a rebel. I JUST HATE HIM IN SO MANY WAYS! months passed, i forgot about the hate, i always see him around our subdivision,everything's cool. 

December last year, we held a Christmas party at our subd. , he asked me about my lip piercing, we talked, we played guitar for a bit ..suddenly a friend of ours got drunk and he cant go home smelling like beer and shiz, So we decided we'll look after him. We talked for hours about everything, my impression towards him changed. I felt something completely weird. I asked myself "do i actually like him?". 

AFTER CHRISTMAS PARTY:  december 18th
                          The day after he messaged me, i was shocked and curious,where'd he get my number. But i cant help smiling. He asked me if i could go out later that day,i said okay. We talked again, he said he was gon go to hongkong for 2 weeks,he said he'll miss me. I didn't believe him, I replied oh-kaayyy. I mean, why would i? we just started to get to know each other. Later that night,he asked me to go out again,since i have nothing else to do,i went out to meet him outside, we were walking...he grabs me by the waist and just started kissing me intensely. I didn't know why i didn't bother to push him away. He told me, the first time he saw me, he was stunned and he was hesitating whether to talk to me or not. It was just then when he had the guts to.

He went to hongkong,he messaged me right away. And the rest is just pure bliss.


RESUMING OF CLASSES: January 5th
                    i  talked to my best friend about this considering she's the one who knows the world of boyfriends and what not. During this time i was still confused, is what we have just a fling? I didn't want to hurt myself so i put my guard up.

                  dismissal time, i was walking my way home, i head footsteps behind me, i looked back.. and to my surprise it was him! he came back! exactly two weeks :D he said sorry he didnt text me right away,he lost his phone in HK. I asked him where he was going, he was actually about to go to my place to ask what my number is. (aww..) . After i finished my schoolwork, i went out to meet up with him. He asked if i could court me..i was hesitating.. (mom said if guys want to court me.she has to meet them first.) I didn't want to tell him that right away, that's like nerve wrecking .

                       "I want to meet your mom to ask her personally" he said. I forgot to breathe. I asked him if he was sure. He said he's perfectly sure.


HELLO MY NAME IS: JANUARY 6th
                               he went to my place, talked to my mom. They got along pretty well. I was ecstatic! so now, we're official.


It's been fun hanging out with him, he's not really what i thought he was. last saturday, we went out with his buddy and his buddys girl audrey.

she told me, that he(my supposedly bf) is changing for the better and that maybe it's me who's changing him. She was impressed. They've known each other for a long time. She even told me she was surprised that i was nice.(which is weird. but okay)



I KNOW NOW: january 22


                            He always tells me that he loves me, but i dont believe him...until that encounter with audrey, it totally changed my mind. This is the day i realized. I Love Him Too.  To me it doesnt matter if we just knew each other, but i really feel it, haven't felt like this in a long time and it feels great.

                           we'll be celebrating our first month together this feb 6th. i want to make it special.



..... to be continued




SO that's about all that's happened to me.



anything similar happened to you? :) tell me about it <3



LOTS OF LOVE!! stay strong

why haven't i been blogging daily?

well hello there darlings. :D

it's been a few days since i haven't been blogging. what a hectic week for me, school resumed, schoolworks keep on coming in.

OK, so i just want to talk about what happened to me the past few days no matter how tiring it was, it was freakin epic. So i introduced this guy to my mom. . Everything went well between them, mom liked him (whoo!thank God).  He's still courting me, it's tradition/culture that if a guy likes you, he has to court you first for days,weeks,even months! It's unacceptable here to have a boyfriend like instantly.  AND if he courts you.. he has to court you and only you i don't get it..why can't you just be boyfriend and girlfriend when you're already that exclusive with each other. (beats me :| )

Anyway, mom ordered those Brazilian slimming coffee,4 boxes. She's wanting to be thin too. She's getting it later. speaking of slimming.. Intense pilates are working wonders for me.. i'm now gradually having these girl abs.. pretty cool if you ask me :D

I'm looking forward to summer!

here are some pics i found on the net.. enjoyyy <3

a body like megan fox's.

hello guys :D

it's been a while since i blogged.well it has been a few days. BUT! i missed you :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ugh. aren't you guys tired of hearing that or.. anyway.

I've started doing pilates. If you guys want to know what videos i use..tell me..comment below.. :D

I can't concentrate on this blog because im messaging "him"..oh how i miss him. He's spending time with his sister in hongkong..and no..he's not chinese. OK.so i kept my message short enough for me not to look soo into him but long enough to let him know i miss him.. is that good?? oh good god. I don't know what to do.

haaaa--nyyy--waaaaayy.

It seems like my goal towards losing weight is going downhill. Ugh. I hate it soooo much! I have like a pear shaped body so it frustrates me. I want my body to look like megan fox's. (yeah..like that's going to happen.)

see???? ugh. why does getting thin have to be soo hard. I need some major thinspo right now.

. What are your techniques to getting thin? HOW DO YOU DO IT??!!! im curious because when i read your blogs i see that you lost 2 pounds or more. I'm freaaakiinn jealous. I opened up to "him"about me fasting to get thin. he said why not exercise? i told him i was too lazy to do that and the naughty side of him said "i know one exercise you wont get tired of". I assume you guys know. :D but i'm not yet ready. I know the time will come but no right now.'

AS ALWAYS I'M FEELING FLABBY!!

i found something on the net..

http://www.pro-thinspo.com/howtogetsuperskinnyfast.html

lots of love

-red <3

taylor momsen?

hello darlings.

how have you been doing? I'm not feeling well today, it was too cold.

i've been watching some of "the pretty reckless" videos today, and my oh my! taylor momsen is awesome. I know i'm like kind of late but yeah. I love the way that she's skinny but she still have..pardon me.. Boobs. haha!

I'm kind of deciding whether i want to look like Vanessa hudgens or Taylor momsen. body wise i mean. I want taylor momsen's makeup though. Here are some of their pics and i hope you guys like it :D

swimming tomorrow?

hello darlings.

I don't feel so good.. mom is watching every move i make. She makes sure that i eat,my sisters are making remarks about anorexia and what not. How will i ever achieve the body i want if they are always here to mess things up? and do you know what she did? she had food delivered for me to eat. i feel like such a fat-ass!

i want to be thin sooooo bad! i will just have a liquid fast tomorrow. everyone's gonna be busy because we will celebrate something i will not eat. i will swim the whole day and sleep after. 

I'll just drink mom's slimming tea, it gives good results.she knows that i drink it. :D it makes my stomach flat and shizz. 

 aww. i  feel like such a failure. I promised myself not to eat. But i just can't. 

"you know you're fat if your shorts are riding up on your thighs."

Lot's of love

--red <3

binged.purged.will fast

heyy darlings.

Im soo happy today. :D I talked to dad on skype.. it's the first time i "saw" him again in years. I hope he will come visit us this summer. He's always busy with work. I miss him so much.

Anyway, I've been out of control the past few days, i'm not gonna lie. I ate like a monster. But i purged and now the lock of my labret piercing is gone. :\ I'm going to buy a new one. The one that's like a spike. LOL. My throat hurts. ouch.? :P

I'm going to fill up my days with lot's of activities. Maybe read some of my textbooks,study ahead so when school resumes i know some of our lessons already. sounds boring.. hahaha :D or i could play guitar all day, wait..ugh. I'm going too stay away from the kitchen! that's what im gonna do.

New year is coming up.. oh my god..2010 went by sooo fast! or it just me? i want this school year to be over. I just want summer to come already because i want to dye my hair bright red. black hair is killing me! well not really. ugh. i don't  know.

okay,see you later guys.always smile! have a good day..or night?.

lot's of love
--red

one down.. 2 to go.

hello darlings :D

So Christmas eve here is done.(that's the one down) later there will be an after party.so that means food food food. my god. and new year! mom already has plans for that. she said she will prepare lots of food so that we will never run out of food for the whole year. It's all superstition but that's part of our tradition
(whoa. that was a crime of rhyme.. LOL..i got it from WOWP.:D )

I find this years Christmas rather exciting,tiring and okay. I got a tokio hotel shirt and money. Money is always nice to receive. it was tiring because my sister and i were the ones who took care of everything. from making the house look good.to cooking.washing the dishes and what not.ugh.m :\

I hope you guys had,have a wonderful Christmas don't forget to greet Jesus, after all it is HIS BIRTHDAY. :D

happy birthday Jesus and merry Christmas to you all! :D

<3 lots of love
--red

okay since i have wowp here on my blog..might as well put pictures of Selena Gomez.